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Perkembangan Aisyah..Just a few bytes untuk catatkan perkembangan Aisyah. Waktu mula-mula datang dulu, dah makin banyak dia boleh cakap dan boleh express her feeling etc. Tapi sekarang macam ada kecelaruan bahasa pulak... Nak kata kitorang tiba-tiba bercakap English dengan dia, tak jugak...tapi sebab berkawan dan tv (tree house lerr nih), maka pening nak melayan kadang-kadang tuhh

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1. The Song

Last few days, papa bukak tingkap sebab nak tidur bertemankan cahaya bulan :P. Bulan kat sini nampak jauh lebih besar banding di Malaysia, mungkin kedudukan Canada nih kut. So kitorang pun baring-baring nak tidor, tiba-tiba si Aisyah sit up straight, pandang ke arah tingkap dan tangan kanan tunjuk straight ke arah bulan... tiba-tiba

"Twinkle-twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are...
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky..."

dengan kuat penuh semangat patriotik sampai habis...terkedu kami yang tengah lali-lali nak tidur nih :P
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2. The Request

Kadang-kadang agak funny bila dia cakap

"Mama, can I nak nasi pleaseee?"
"Mama, can I have nak makan?"
"Can I nak play please?"

Atau kadang-kadang dia akan bawak some food yang dia dapat dari dalam kabinet,
"Mama, this one kena masak!"

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3. The Compliment
"Oh no, mama look. That one over there...sakit"
(Pointing at vacuum yang handle tak letak properly, so bila mama betulkan..)
"Very Good, mama."

Atau bila makan...
"Mmm... tasty!"
"Deliciousss...Mmmm" Sambil jilat2 mulut macam kartun
"Mmmm... yummy!! I lovve~e yummy. Thank you, mama"
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4. The Complaint

"I want nak ayam goreng! I dont want mee...No mee!"
"No way!"  

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(Sniffing)

"Oww..mama. That one stinky (tutup hidung).. Euww...gross!"
 (kalau dia buat macam tuh kat tong sampah yang tengah tunggu diangkut keluar tu ok la, tapi kadang2 dia buat kat makanan seperti air sirap cincau..sebab nampak hitam-hitam kat dalam tuh.

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5. The Refusal


"Mama! I dont want no gosok gigi! No! I dont want! Don't touch! Oh no! Oh no! Oh HELPPP"

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Aisyah, mama will always love you :) Hope that you do, too

How to Write an Effective Conclusion

Tengah browse pasal peer review punya writing method, khas untuk encik suami yang tak habis2 bz sampai lupa isterinya nih dah tinggal berapa hari jer lagi... when i found this -->

Techniques for an Effective Conclusion, with Examples

When teaching students how to write a conclusion, try these techniques, complete with examples:

• A lesson learned: I guess I should have listened to my Mom when she said, "don't smear blood on your legs and swim with sharks"
• Action: As the shark came closer, I corralled the obese adolescent, shoved him in the predator's path, and swam like heck to safety!
• Dialogue: The angry parent cornered me and yelled, "You killed my son." I responded, "no ma'am, that shark killed your son."
• Emotion: The horrified parents looked on as the shark chewed their son's knee cartilage. I drove away, relieved that it wasn't me.
• Drawstring: I glanced over and noticed Franklin had a smirk on his face. He had done the same thing during a shark attack in New Zealand. We have held a secret respect for each other ever since.
• Surprise: I opened the newspaper and read "Mass murderer eaten by shark." I couldn't believe that 12-year-old was a mass murderer. It looks like I'm a hero.
• Quotation: Remember, "You don't have to be faster than the shark; you just have to be faster than the person your swimming with."

Takutnya cikgu nih...bagi contoh shark pulak :P Tapi rasanya applicable jugak :D

Source here  

But for my future reference, dan kut ada yang berminat, sebagai permulaan untuk buat peer review nih, eloklah rujuk ke sources berikut (simple guidelines) -->
1. eetd
2. emeraldinsight

The Saffron Gate

This is my first attempt for a book review. Honestly I'm not good at doing this review thingy, as this girl can pull it out, but good things are to be shared, right? :)

Written by Linda Holeman, what really caught my interest immediately was the cover of the book that showed a barefoot lady in a knee-length skirt facing somewhat to be the gate of somewhere in Arab countries. The girl and the gate portrays two contradicting things..which immediately caught my attention :D


The story revolves around the journey of a young and naive American girl, Sidonie O'Shea, who tries to undiscover the mysterious disappearance of her fiance, Etienne Duverger. Etienne is the only reason that kept her breathing, after the death of her mother and the tragic accident that took her father's life and shattered hers. For a naive girl who had never left her small town, she made a no-turning-back decision when she bought a one-way ticket to Marrakesh.

All she has as the guide to find his fiancee's whereabout is a letter from Etienne's sister that she found from the trash bin from his empty room. And that was when she realized that she had known nothing about her fiancee or his family, except that he has a sister who lives in Marrakesh. She feels that he is in some kind of danger when he suddenly disappeared after she revealed the good news that she bears their child. And her suspicions grew stronger when she found out that he left in such a hurry without a single word to her.

The Saffron Gate definitely shows Sidonie as the main character, has a very strong yet naive heart but, on my first impressions,  I must say that Im just a little underwhelmed. As the journey began, I began to relate myself to this girl. I could feel her worries that she tried to mask by being strong and stubborn. I can reason some of her stupid decisions, and along with her, I have a sky high hope that she will eventually meet him..and like any other fairy tales, ended with being "happily ever after".

Without using bombastic words and manipulating complicated situations to create the twists in the book, The Saffron Gate is easily a page turner, while at the same time, this is one of the few books that I wouldnt want to leave out even a page unread, since not only that the journey and life in Marrakesh was beautifully and precisely described, but yet, I felt that I 'grew' up with Sidoney along the journey. From a naive, 'ugly worm' that simply live lazily one day to another, she emerged into a strong, carefree and 'beautiful' butterfly that speaks her own mind.

This is certainly one of the best "romance adventure" book that I would love to recommend to novel lovers out there. It has all the right ingredients- consistent and well thought characters,  and solid and interesting background, that only those with the experience can write such interesting scenes in Marrakesh. There are few things that I would love for the author to elaborate more especially the part in the Blue Man's village, but I think what was written there was adequate enough for a romance story. It is also rare that when for the first time, I find flashback in the early parts of the book as being interesting :P Normally, I would just skip the flashback part, be it in any book or movie :D

I like the scenes described in this book. I love how the author really portrayed the main character, Sidonie, as being physically and emotionally imperfect but grows up as we turn on to the next page.  I adore how the main character is able to see certain things from both non-Muslim and Muslim point of views. And I simply love the twists in the end of the story. The book is not overly worded but rich and lovely.

How many stars? Hmm...As many as possible, since it had brighten my days :)

Nibbles and Noshes 1 - WaterLily

Ive learnt that what makes a meal delicious isnt the taste of the food itself, in fact, it was the dining experience that matters the most. Mr Z has been extremely busy these few weeks. Most of the time, he'd take the last ride home.. And he's been spending his weekends in the university as well... Thus, Ive tried to make the most out of nothing on the few times when we were together, even though that was just another plain appointments with the family doc.

So last Friday, on the way home from the routine (tiring) pregnancy assessment, we stopped by a shop located immediately opposite St Vital bus station. I noticed the restaurant's name that catered/sponsored a party (by a Muslim association) on which we've attended not long ago - Lily Water, and pointed it out to my husband. I didnt expect him to suggest that we have our lunch there but guess what, it must have been my lucky day after all.. Moreover, mungkin dia setuju nak makan di situ because Ive warned him that I only have bolognese spaghetti for the dinner. Dua-dua father and daughter nih takkan kenyang kalau tak makan "n.a.s.i"... at least sekali dalam sehari setengah..sebab masuk hari kedua si papa mesti komen

"dah dua hari abang tak makan nasi" 

manakala si anak pula dah 2 kali 'menjerit' tengah2 malam, (kul 12 lebih, definitely)

"mama, nak nashik, nak nashik, nak nashikkkkk...no mee! I dont want mee"

What puzzled me the most is the fact that these two people are (respectively) half and quarter Chinese, does that mean that Chinese consume more nasi than Malays? Huhu~

So atas sebab demikian, kami singgah sebentar di restoran tersebut. Sorry, no pics sangat, sogan sebab orang makin ramai... dan the owner sangat peramah kejap2 datang to the table :P

* The menu came in a unique, scroll-like thingy

* I went for the buffet, n got myself some rice, tandoori chicken, few soups/sauces, and goat curry :P

* While Mr Z went for the ala-carte and treated himself with chicken butter

Chill down, honey. The menu isnt in the robotic paper, anyway :P

* Overall, the food were nice, the dining experience was fantastic :) The owner/staffs were nice and greet each of their customer from table to table. As for the meal, I love the rice and the goat curry so much..For that reason alone, I wouldnt mind coming back for another nibbles :P

* There were around 12 dishes for the buffet not including few types of desserts available. Although they didnt serve pork etc, not everything there is halal. You can ask the owner which one is halal on that day or can simply request for the halal food from the ala carte menu. This type of restaurants (halal food on request) is quite normal here. I considered myself lucky, since on that day, other than the butter chicken, everything else was halal... Hehe, not that I ate that much

* There wasnt much to say about the dessert. Fresh tapi macam available kat mana-mana 3,4-star hotel jer. But the onion bhaji sure looked delicious..Tapi terlalu kenyang.. Next time boleh try lagi kan abang kan? :P

Harap-harap ada lagi siri jalan-jalan cari makan nih, memandangkan cuaca dah semakin cantik :)
Hello spring!

Aisyah Sleepy?

We went for some shopping with cik F and her cute little girl the other day. To wake Aisyah's sleepyhead and encourage her to wear her jacket etc, i promised her that im gonna buy her some 'buku book'.. Turn out Sobeys (and few other stores that we went to that day) didnt have a section for toys and books for the kids..

So predictably, she kept reminding me of 'that' unfulfilled promise these few days.. even when we went to the bridal shower last time or simply watching tv at home. So yesterday, I took the opportunity to take her out. It was just another perfect day for some walk. Knowing her nature of enjoying her sleep in the stroller in every outing, I knew that I took some real risk by taking her on her feet. Huhu~

'We' were singing all the way there. She was just happy and happy to get some 'buku book' while I was looking forward to grab some nice drapes or cute cardigans for this coming spring.. So when we got there, she was just excited and started to choose few books. The good thing about letting her make her own choice is that she will only take one thing at a time.

When she finally made up her mind and took a book on Dora party's planner, I put her in that shopping cart. So I guessed it was my turn for some spring spree.. Just few minutes in the cart,

Me: "Are you sleepy, Aisyah?"
She: "No! Aisyah no sleepy!" She snapped.

Yeahh, wriggghtttttttt!!!

Now, how am I going to take her home without her precious stroller?...I am a genius! huhu~


I lugged her off the cart, still sleeping.. Owh, she was crying a bit.. Pujuk juga lagi dan lagi. When she was ok, I put on her jacket and we dashed out from the store without buying a single thing..just in case I have to carry her afterward...
Nasib baik dia dah ok, and started to sing again all the way home... Fuhh~
So we stopped by another shop on the way home to get her a 'buku book' because she would never keep me at ease if i forgot to buy her one, again..

Aisyah oh Aisyah...

p/s: Banyak branded names bags tengah offer, 50% off... Sesetengah tuh takder jual kat Malaysia. Nak kena beli nih.. Owh, tarik nafasss...

Me and Arts... and My Kids

Yup..I love arts and linguistic study more than these engineering punya stuffs. Pening. When I was in primary school, saya ambil upah seposen atau dua posen untuk lukis gambar anak patung dan baju2 kat kulit buku..ehehe. Pastu rasa segan nak ambil upah dah, sebab 10 sen tuh besar sebenarnya bagi budak2..so kadang-kadang saya lukis for free and kadang-kadang saya mintak upah kulit buku yang putih atau biru tuh :P

Bila masuk sekolah menengah, atas pengaruh sekeliling, saya mula merasa malu kalau orang tau saya boleh lukis gambar orang, selepas di'tazkirah' beberapa kawan yang lukis potret2 nih tak bagus.. Berdosa besar. Huhu~ So I stopped drawing! And I stopped loving doing them..Sampai waktu form 5 kut, ada yang ter"tau" saya boleh lukis, so mereka mintak saya lukis gambar2 artis kesayangan diorang..hehe, tapi biasalah, dah lama tak lukis, maka kadang2 jadi, kadang2 muka mariah carey pun jadi muka cik siti.. Kat sekolah kitorang memang ramai yang pandai arts nih - especially bab penggunaan watercolor tuh. Manakala saya punya genre ialah sketching + penggunaan pensil..tataula pulak apa istilahnya. So diam-diam jer la, asal lukis jer orang cakap berdosa, baik dok diam2.. huhu~ Lagipun, engineering dan pure science nih digambarkan sebagai "elit" dan glamorous la banding art (kononya la, tatau la kena brainwashed dengan sapa waktu tuh)

Tamat form five, cepat2 nak apply untuk jadi akauntan, ambil A-Level dan further study ke Ireland, one of the best place for studying accountant (at least that was what I thought). Tak hingin nak jadi engineering nih, sincerely. Macam membosankan. Tapi amat mengecewakan bila tiap-tiap muka surat buku UPU untuk akauntan tuh, tertulis "pelajar yang mengambil dua atau lebih daripada subjek berikut, fizik, kimia, biologi, add math, atau/dan sains tulin, tidak dibenarkan memohon jurusan akauntan. Permohonan tidak akan dilayan."

*Speechless*

Gelap masa depan. Terus buntu tatau nak buat apa. So dapat dua offer, samada engineering ke UK atau engineering ke Jepun..Tapi sebab offer ke jepun sampai before result SPM kuar, hentam sajalah.. And from that time on, saya malas betul nak study.. Buat separuh hati..Terasa kena rentap separuh nyawa.. Saya betul2 geram dengan dasar kerajaan waktu tuh. Longgokan pelajar kejuruteraan. Semua nak sumbat masuk engineering. Kalau kutahu, awal2 lagi dah ambil social science..

As for my kids, saya nak mereka tahu yang "tidak semua orang dilahirkan pandai mengikut persepsi masyarakat". Ada yang bagus dari segi arts, tapi ada yang memang purely otak sains... Ada yang memang otaknya tak boleh belajar formal, tapi dia sangat mahir skill, kulinari dan sebagainya.. Ada yang memang tak boleh belajar langsung, tapi sangat2 rajin. Bak kata pepatah Arab, setiap penyakit ada ubatnya. So tiap-tiap orang ada kemahirannya sendiri. Tak semua orang mampu dan mahu menjadi engineer and vice versa.

Kalau Aisyah ditakdirkan lebih suka arts atau kulinari atau apa-apa yang bukan sains, I think she can proceed with that. Saya tahu satu hari nanti akan ada "tekanan" yang hebat untuk menjadi "pandai", samada ke atas dirinya mahupun diri kami sebagai ibubapanya... But been there, done that. Apa yang penting kerjasamaaaa ialah hidup dalam keadaan tenang dan bahagia. Hidup sebagai diri sendiri, while contributing to the community. At the end, what matters most is what we do everyday, or 'the day after'.. And job is one of the thing that you do everyday..

Now that Im staying at home, I think Ive got more time and space to revert to my hobby again. Buat benda-benda seni nih..Walaupun dah keras otakku, but I managed to photoshop something..

Kat laman web photoshop nih akan diberi tema atau gambar yang perlu diphotoshopkan. Maka gambar untuk diphotoshopkan ialah: ->

The metal tripod thingy..apa ntah

So used the pic and google jugak the following pic:

So teknik photoshop yang digunakan ialah blending, blur, emboss, liquify, etc, macam biasa, and i added some glow effect juga. So saya edit2 dan hasilkan gambar assasin ninja berikut:-

Pertandingan tuh dah buka beberapa hari n ada yang dah masuk sebulan before tuh..tapi saya cuma sempat hantar 2 jam sebelum pertandingan. Sedihnya, it wasnt about the vote and view, tapi review. Teringin nak dengar review dari experts or photoshop lovers yang lain..tapi tak sempat. huhu~

Terpaksa review sendiri:
Kerja tangan photoshop pertama nih amatur, teknik banyak tau, tapi yang lebih penting bukan teknik, tapi execution tuh...ada beberapa tempat nampak tak kemas, especially bab penggunaan "pen tools" tu, kena perbaiki lagi.

Macam betul jerr..ruginyaa..tak dapat dengar apa kata expert, so jadi macam syok sendiri.. Takper, cuba lagi yer. Next nak belajar animating guna photoshop, previously cuma guna inkscape.

The Evening Ramble under the Sun

It was a warm and sunny Saturday. And we took the opportunity to stroll through the hustle free neighborhood. Who could have guessed that such a small evening walk under the sun, with all of  us three - together - could bring back so much joy and happiness.

We used to do this (walks) a lot, before we've got each other occupied with the so-called-jobs-and-responsibilities . There were few reasons for me to jot this down as one of the best memory we've ever had since we came here last August, although there've been hundreds of similar occasions that took place.

1. We havent spent so much time as a family, lately. He's been very, extremely, terribly busy lately. The few words that I recall every time he came back (late as usual) from the university were

"Sayang apa khabar?"           *love you, im fine, thanx for asking*
"Aisyah ok tak hari nih?"        *happy as always, thanx honey :)*
"Abang tidor dulu yer.."          *err*

2. Every time we went out together, we were rushing against the time, since Zohr to Asr to Maghrib prayers were just like 2hours +- intervals (in between)...And I havent had the guts to pray on the snowy park yet :)

3. We've been spending A LOT of time with our own friends. He has pile of friends of his own while I have my own bunch of best friends here. And in no time, the convenience and abundance love from friends has became the ultimate cause for us to think that it was ok not to spend so much time together as a family, since Ive already been busied with 'formal' meeting with the girls every weekend and crazy shopping few times in the weekdays, while he were not at home...and vice versa for him...And i know that love really needs some kind of give and take, and this is the sacrifice i have to give, for the abundance of love and warmth that i felt from people surrounding me, especially from him..

There was still snow melting here and there, but most of the sidewalks were clear :)  And the green grass started to pop out from the earth surface :) The sun were so much warmer than the last time I remembered. Mr Z and I had to take both our winter jackets of, while Aisyah tried her best to cover her eyes from the amazingly shining sun.

The snowmelt, predictably, caused some floods in few places here and there. In addition to the black pile of snow on the park, these werent very pleasant sights, although I must say that I really find it kind of amusing and interesting that such a developed country hasnt find the ultimate solution to the melting snow that has been causing major floods every year.

Winter in Canda has been quite tough for me.. -46'C? Gosh.. We are in the north pole anyway :P Guess what, we just realized that I actually survived this cruel winter of Canada by......locking myself at home, whenever that is possible and permissible :P

The view from our balcony. The warm taste of the spring that is soon to arrive...hopefully.

Pizza and Calzone Pizza

Walaupun saya rasa ramai dah ada resipi pizza kegemaran family masing-masing, just feel the need to jot down this recipe here, since it has never failed me. Dah marinara sauce tu diajar oleh si empunya fast food restoran punya resipi :D.

1. HAWAIIAN PIZZA

(1a) Dough pizza:
2 tsp madu
1 tsp garam
1 tsp yeast (active dried yeast)
1 cawan air suam (luke warm around 30'C)
3 to 3 1/2 cawan Tepung gandum
2 tbsp olive oil (boleh ganti minyak biasa)

1. Masukkan garam + madu ke dalam air suam dan kacau.
2. Masukkan yeast dan kacau.
3. Biarkan 10 minit.
4. Masukkan tepung gandum + olive oil sedikit demi sedikit dan uli..
5. Adun (sampai lembut tapi pejal dan tidak melekat)dan bentuk bola dengan adunan tadi

*Adunan yang baik ialah tidak merekah bila dibentuk bola dan tidak melekat/ lembik di tangan sehingga tidak dapat membentuk bola adunan yang cantik.
* Jika adunan merekah, tambahkan air sedikit demi sedikit, sehingga adunan cantik dan tidak menggerutu/merekah. Sebaliknya, jika adunan lembik/ melekit, tambahkan tepung gandum (gradually), tapi tak perlula perfect sampai gambar di bawah

6. Lumurkan bola adunan tadi dengan olive oil
7. Tutup dengan saran wrap (cling wrap), biarkan sehingga 1 jam pada suhu bilik

8. Selepas satu jam, canaikan leper untuk 'dipizzakan'.. (paham ker :P)
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(1b) Bolognese Sauce

p/s: Ini resipi rahsia tokey restaurant tu yer :) Kalau guna resipi sendiri ok jer, tp kalau berminat ambil lerr.
Bahan-bahan
1 tbsp olive oil
Bawang putih (tumbuk kasar)

1 tin tomato sauce dalam tin
3,4 tbsp pati/pes tomato (tomato puree)
1 tin whole tomato in can (boleh ganti dengan tomato sebenar atau diced tomato)

Daging cincang sebanyak mana yang suka

Bay leaves
Herbs -Italian seasoning, oregano leaves, parsley flakes, garlic powder, basil leaves

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The herbs used -->

The types of tomato in cans (we used whole tomatoes, puree and and sauce)

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Cara-cara membuat sos bolognese:

1. Panaskan olive oil (sedikit mungkin, preferably use non-stick pan)
2. Tumis bawang putih sampai naik bau
3. Masukkan daging cincang dan kacau comel-comel
4. Tumis hingga daging tidak kemerah-merahan dan mengeluarkan jus daging
5. Masukkan tomato paste dan kacau
6. Masukkan bay leaf dan kacau
7. Masukkan tomato sauce, kacau-kacau lagi
8.Masukkan whole tomato yang dihancurkan (sila buat dengan tangan untuk lebih kasih sayang :P)
9. Masukkan herbs selebihnya, kacau (preferably basil leaf n parsley masuk sebelum sauce dimasak)
10. Masak hingga sos mencapai kepekatan yang disukai

Masukkan garam jika perlu

* Tomato paste digunakan untuk menyerlahkan warna merah yang cantik/ berkilat
* Whole tomato/ tomato asli digunakan untuk memberi rasa 'sweet' tomato dalam sos
* Tutup kuali dengan aluminum foil untuk mengelakkan kuah splatter merata-rata, sementara menunggu step 10
* Sos boleh disimpan sehingga 2 minggu dalam peti ais (tapi tunggu sejuk dulu baru simpan yer)
* Hidang bolognese spaghetti dengan grated cheese
* Pekatkan bolognese sauce jika ingin digunakan  sebagai topping pizza

(1c) Menyediakan hawaiian pizza
Topping untuk Hawaiian pizza normally made from ham + pineapple, but we love to use the bolognese sauce + pineapple instead.

- Dough yang disediakan di atas (1a) tadi di sapukan permukaan rata-rata dengan sauce yang disediakan di (1b).
- Tabur cheese kegemaran sendiri (kami guna cheese 4 in 1 - mozzarela, parmesan etc)
- Bake at 400 'F to 450'F selama 25 minit

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CALZONE PIZZA

- BAHAN DOUGH DAN SOS (LIHAT DI ATAS)
- Salad sayur-sayuran yang ringkas - tomato, timun, shredded kobis, digaul dengan sedikit mayonnaise

Buat seperti menyediakan pizza biasa,
Letak lapisan sos bolognaise, nanas, cheese, salad sayur-sayuran, cheese
Jangan diletak sos di tepi2 doh, sebab pizza akan dilipat/ folded (seperti karipap)
Bakar pada suhu 420'F selama 20 -25 minit (lebih kurang)

 Calazone tuh lebih kurang macam nih rupanya..tapi nih culik gambar dari website orang

P/s: Ini post yang paling lama masa diambil untuk menulis..Penatnya. Gigih sungguh.
p/p/s: Aisyah, papa suka nih. Nanti mama takder belajar buat sendiri yer

Komputer Menangis

I asked him if he had any (updated) antivirus since last year but to no avail. Few months ago, he had this Trend Micro installed in my PC..without consulting me first. Tapi takperlah, what's the worse that could happen?

All's well that ends well...that's what I thought.. But no! Since it required online scanning...it tend to get my cpu fully 'consumed' + firefox will hang due to the buffer overflow.. At that time, i would just get it to "scan later", but since the antivirus had expired (lately), it would scan whenever it wanted to, and would upgrade the antivirus however it was pleased with. In short, I, AS THE SOLE OWNER OF THIS PC, HAD NO AUTHORITY WHATSOEVER ANYMORE, TO CHANGE OR DELETE OR EVEN TOUCH THE ANTIVIRUS ANYMORE!

Hehe...caps lock..Orang cakap kalau type guna caps lock tuh tengah marah...so tengah marah lerr nih. Ive tried to delete it the usual way, from the control panel, but it required some kind of password before it can be removed. Ive tried to hack it manually from the reg key (regedit) but it did not allow any changes to few of its value.. So for the time being, I can only stop it from 'overfeeding' the buffer by preventing its backdoor process thru msconfig.. Grrrr..

Moreover, I noticed that many av softwares tend to let some kind of adware running as the background process once it expired..Thus, weird ads (gambling, online dating etc) and renewing notices/warnings etc would keep popping out..not to mention that my computer would run very slow.. Malasnya... But it's ok, Mr Z told me that he had the 'magic cure' to all these problems...he had the Trendmicro remover. It is yet to be used but that was a big relief, i must say.

Just when i thought that everything's gonna turn out ok, the series of the unfortunate events didnt just ended there.. Today, when i wanted to use my PC, i suspected that 'someone' or 'something' had Microsoft XP Antivirus 2010 installed in this old and loyal machine of mine... Owwhh, rasa macam nak nangis...In case anyone havent noticed,

XP Antivirus 2010 is not an antivirus, it IS a TROJAN ROGUE-SPYWARE may spread via trojan.

O my old computer, what have i done unto thee.

p/s: i visited this funny website last night. I wasnt sure if it has any relation with this trojan infection, but im still mourning :((

Make Over

Last saturday, I told lil Aisyah that we were having some guests coming over to our house, so she need to dress up a bit. I let her choose her own dress as usual. And when she saw my Kohl on the desk, she insisted to try it out as well..

"Nak mulut, mulut" while making some predictable gestures, hinting that she had it mistaken for some lipsticks. Lol.
"It's not lipstick Aisyah. Ini pakai kat mata.."
"Nak pakai mata..nak pakai mata.."

She once saw ms F did some makeover on me, putting that eyeliner aka Kohl on my eyes. She thought it looked beautiful on me, so she ran to Ms F and begged Ms F to put the eyeliner on her as well. It turned out very well, she just LoVe~Dd it very much.

So I thought that this was going to be fun. I was going to do some makeover on her.. Hehe *evil mama* So I asked her to close her eyes and then I drew careful lines under her long eyelashes. Well, this is her pictures before the makeover..

The excited girl before the make over!

Just look at how she was being so excited about getting even with her mama.. to get the feeling as if she grew up old enough to wear my make up.

And when I'm done with the eyeliner, she ran to the big mirror on the hallway, while I was getting ready with my camera..to capture the "after makeover" pics.. it wasnt bad, despite being pretty messy on her left eye, and double line on the upper lids, and a bit too heavy on the lower lids..But overall, i think i did a pretty good job :P

But her reactions... were nothing that Ive ever imagined,

"No camera! Mama, no camera! Nooo!" She screamed.
"Noooo~" Still screaming while running away from me, away to her playroom.
"Mama ,noooo~ I dont want" Continued screaming while closing the door to her playroom..

Gosh!
Was I that bad?

Cerita Anak Yatim

Selepas menerima berita kematian suami seorang sahabat, terasa tertutup sebentar nikmat dunia. Mungkin kebetulan juga, badan pula lemah dan bagai demam. Sugul. Terasa begitu senangnya nyawa disentap kembali oleh pemilik sebenarnya. Dua tiga hari juga bersedih, apatah lagi bila dikhabarkan, sahabat kami mengiringi pemergian suaminya yang baru berusia 39tahun dan baru sahaja dianugerahkan gelaran prof itu, dengan penuh tabah. Sebaik sahaja suaminya 'pergi', dikhabarkan dia terus menundukkan wajah ke bawah dan mengangkat tangan menadah do'a...tanpa setitikpun air mata mengalir..

Semalam dilihat di status facebook, sang isteri sahabat kami ini mengucapkan penghargaan dan kesyukuran atas bantuan dan sokongan sahabat, saudara dan semuanya. Barulah terasa lega dan kurang beban di hati, memikirkan wanita ini masih wanita yang sama - tabah, semangat dan kuat..

Bila difikir-fikirkan semula, bukan beliau yang patut berterima kasih, sebaliknya saya yang perlu mengucapkan ayat 'terima kasih' tersebut, kerana kata-katanya itulah yang menyenangkan semula hati dan perasaan kami sahabat-sahabatnya ini. Sekaligus menyapu semula kesugulan yang bersarang di hati 2,3 hari ini.. Walhal dia yang menanggung bebannya... :)

Kemudian di majlis ta'alim tempohari, apabila berita kematian ini disampaikan kepada kawan-kawan, mereka turut mengucapkan takziah dan sama-sama mengirimkan al-Fatihah buat arwah.. Alhamdulillah.. Orang yang menabur ilmunya tanpa berkira, selalunya akan sentiasa dikenang kebaikannya di dunia dan didoakan kesejahteraan di akhirat.. Beruntunglah mereka yang bergelar pendidik.. Disayangi di mana-mana...

Kebetulan pada majlis taalim tersebut, Ms S ada membacakan kisah sang anak yatim termulia, yang meratapi pemergian bondanya, dan kemudian datuknya, pada usia termuda. Lagilah sebak hati ini teringatkan anak-anak sahabat kami yang masih kecil itu.

Tapi lembut kata-kata Ms M, beliau bercerita,

"When our beloved prophet Muhammad SAW lost his mother (and grandfather) even he cried.. while saying things (something like this, not the exact words)
"Why you should go and leave me, when you know I had only you. You know I had only you."
But look at him, he still grew up to be the best man in the world, the noblest man here and the hereafter. He was Muhammad SAW..(pbuh)
So dont worry about your friend's children. Insya-Allah they will be ok. Let's pray for them to be strong and successful in dunnya and akhirah. Insya-Allah."

Lembut tazkirah ringkas tersebut mengangkat separuh kesedihan di hati. Benar. Sungguh benar. Anak yatim itu disayangi Rasullullah dan kita semua, dan insya-Allah akan dilindungi-Nya.

Sahabat kami suami isteri ini pintar kedua-duanya. Antara insan-insan terpilih juga mungkin. Dan ketulusan serta keceriaan peribadi sang isteri menyebabkan kehadiran beliau sentiasa menimbulkan kegembiraan di hati sahabat-sahabat yang pernah bersama mereka. Insya-Allah kedua-dua anak mereka akan mewarisi keistimewaan dan kelebihan sang isteri dan arwah suaminya. Moga membesar sebagai anak yang soleh dan solehah, dan meringankan beban ibu kalian yang begitu tabah dan tidak pernah putus asa dalam memberikan yang terbaik untuk kalian. Ameen. Insya-Allah.

Al-Fatihah untuk arwah.

An Empty Note

Kata PK HEM di sekolah menengah dulu,

"Hidup adalah Mati"
"Kita Hidup untuk Mati."

Tiap kali mass assembly pada hari Ahad, itu perkataan yang dia akan cakap. Sampai menjadi ajukan pelajar-pelajar lain...Bagi pelajar belasan tahun, tak tersirat apa yang cuba disampaikan beliau.

Kini setelah lebih 10 tahun, saya lebih dari memahami maksud kata-kata beliau. Setelah kematian orang-orang terdekat dihadapi satu persatu, dan walaupun diri menyangka sudah cukup kuat untuk menerima lagi berita-berita sedih sedemikian, tapi hati tetap hati.. Why does emotional wound brought so much tears, when not even a single physical scar could be seen?


I might not be the brightest crayon in the box, but a research student i was, and I enjoyed my project very much. I loved what i did, and with total support from previous sv and internal examiner, i was looking forward to bring my research to another level, seeing the potential that it had and the contribution it might give to the community. But that was all.

The feeling, the guilt, the anger and the frustrations Ive had, for choosing to (have to) be a stay-at-home-mom...were beyond words. What could be worse when you were dumped with the feeling that you were nothing more than an object for someone else's convenience, an accessory cum a tool for perfecting someone else's life? A mom and a wife - two words that in themselves, carry the meaning that you are a 'job'.

It  was hard for me. None of my high school or even uni friends were SAHM, like me. That was just adding some salts to the already wounded heart. And I was totally alone! Alone in facing my own emotional distress.

Then there was this friend, we were quite close ( i must say that somehow, we whom were in the uni's postgrad's/ hostel had this very strong bond). She was one, of only two 'studying' moms, whom i looked up very much. While other moms seemed to have difficulty to fully concentrate on their study and research (I know it wasnt easy, it wasnt their fault either, i'd be too), she had all my respect for being very smart and hardworking, while at the same time, had never once used family or kids as the excuse for not showing up in the classes, or demanding a postponement for exams, or not coming up with good results for her project.  For the novelty in her reasearch alone, i think she should have got an A++ for her viva :)

She almost finished her second year of her master degree in Germany, but sacrificed it all to be with her husband on his request. That was how she ended up continuing her master in Malaysia, and this time, without scholarships. And again, after that, she opted to be a SAHM to be fully devoted to her family...and her husband. What a woman!

Ive learnt a lot from her on that particular matter - of being a SAHM. I asked her, what made her give up her passions in research, or how she deal with guilt and anger etc? And she always have this nice and logical answers. And her facebook status were full of positive words..I didnt know if those words were actually some 'hagemashi' to convince her own self for being a SAHM, but i guessed they worked wonder on me. Her words awed me in every possible way. And I began to love my status now. It might not be the most glamorous job in the world, but who could doubt that it is indeed one of the noblest work in the hereafter.

She might not know it, but she's been my inspiration, she made me happy with what i do everyday, she made me happy again :) She had so much brilliant future lied ahead of her, but she chose to devote her life for her family... and her husband. I felt so ashamed of myself.

Saya masih ingat jenaka beliau, ketika itu suaminya, (antara pensyarah phd termuda di UIA) datang melawat study room untuk post graduate kami. Walaupun suaminya tidak begitu saya kenal, reputasi beliau sangat hebat. Hate it or love it, semua atau kebanyakan pelajar-pelajar di bawah seliaan beliau memang menghasilkan research yang bagus-bagus, dan dapat menamatkan thesis dalam tempoh yang ditetapkan. Jadi sangatla saya segan dengan suami beliau nih. So walaupun waktu tu hati dah ingat nak kuar g dinner, terpaksa juga berlakon buat-buat sibuk. Tetapi kawan saya ini, dengan kuatnya bertanya...

Her: "Ehh, suamiku hensem nggak?"
Me: "Aaa?" (Giler merah mukaku)
Her: "Suamiku hensem nggak? Aku rasa suami suamiku sungguh hensem."
Me: "Kak W nih..."
Her: "Serious nih. Aku rasa suamiku paling hensem di dunia.. Kalau si Zal.. (kawan kami) itu no 13 hensemnya, kalau si Iw( kawan kami juga) tuh aku kira mungkin no 131. Suamiku hensem no 1 di di dunia."
Me: Hehe..(Suaminya kat sebelah kitorang terus pegi jalan-jalan konon tak dengar perbualan kami)
Her: "Yer la, bagi kamu suamimu mestilah no 1 hensem di dunia..Tapi suamiku kan tetap hensem. Kiranya no 2,3 la kalau bagi kamu..."
Me: Yerrr...hensemmmmm! Suami kak W memang hensem.. (Aduhhh~ tatau nak sorok muka macamana)

And two nights ago, we received the news.

Her husband had passed away.
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Al-Fatihah.


Al-Fatihah buat Prof. Wahyudi Martono. Kehilangan seorang professor muda yang bukan calang-calang ilmunya...Moga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat-Nya dan amalnya diterima sepertimana orang-orang mu'min yang lain. Dan moga diberikan kekuatan kepada kak W dan anak-anak beliau, dan dipermudahkan perjalanan di dunia dan diluaskan rezeki mereka. Moga tabah menghadapi hari-hari mendatang...

I've lost words..

Menjatuhkan hukuman

Recently kita dah jadi macam barat. Kita = orang Melayu. Mungkin banyak sangat import barang-barang dari sana, atau banyak sangat tonton tv dari sana. They play god..diorang menghukum orang. The 12 jurors system tuh paling ridiculous, sebab juri-juri yang diambil entah sapa-sapa, yang sesuka hati tanpa knowledge, tanpa pengalaman dan tanpa perasaan akan hukum orang yang dibicarakan. Dan banyak wrong judgement cases disiarkan di TV, hasil dari juri-juri yang terdesak nak buktikan orang tuh bersalah, dan buat keputusan atas dasar geram, dan dasar percaya diri-sendiri adalah sentiasa betul.

Dah jadi trend ker orang kita menghina dan menjatuhkan hukuman terhadap orang yang dah meninggal dunia nih? Sesama Islam pulak tuh?

Terdahulu, Almarhum Sultan Johor, baru-baru nih, bekas ketua puteri Umno Ampang, Allahyarham Haslinda Mohd. Zerain. Dah lerr komen terus attack individu tu. Bestnya dapat tentukan siapa yang mati masuk syurga atau neraka..hmmm.Ehh, bila Michael Jackson meninggal, ramai pula berdoa ke arah kebaikan.. nice :)

Dan trend menjatuhkan hukuman ini berterusan. Kalau tengok dalam forum-forum atau blog, terus-terusan jer mereka menjatuhkan hukum, buat ini haram, buat itu sunat dan sebagainya. Sakit otak, ramai sangat ustaz dan ustazah tak bertauliah di alam virtual nih. Contoh?
"Ehh, suami yang menjatuhkan talak terhadap isterinya waktu isteri mengandung, talak tu tak sah. Mereka masih suami isteri"
Komen seseorang tentang perceraian seorang pelakoni. Ramai pulak komentar lain yang bersetuju..hmm.
"Maulid nabi tu haram disambut."
Wahh~ tahun baru pandai pulak pegi tengok firework.

Kita cuma belajar sekolah agama petang-petang, fardhu ain setiap jumaat pagi, bahasa Arab pun setakat boleh buat karangan 150 patah perkataan tajuk "Albustani".. sekarang semua dah berkarat. Kalau tak larat nak sambung cari ilmu tu, belajar dari buku dan berguru, baik kita dengar alim alima bertauliah yang bercerita bab fekah nih. Kadang-kadang belajar agama secara berintenet nih memang boleh semakin menyesatkan...

Trend lagi baru, bila orang dah makin berani bagi hukuman berdasarkan kehendak hati atau nak menyenangkan/memenangkan diri..
"Ibu yang melahirkan secara pembedahan, dosanya tak terhapus, tak sama macam lahir secara normal."
"Tidak menyusukan anak itu haram dan boleh membawa ibu ke neraka."
"Orang Islam wajib menjadi kaya untuk membantu ummah."

Kadang-kadang ustaz cakap dari satu segi, kita yang pandai elaborate sendiri. Kalau keluar berita di tv tentang "kemungkinan" seseorang itu bersalah, atau bersekedudukan, baiklah kita jangan jatuhkan hukuman terlebih dahulu, sebab kita cuma terima fakta dari orang ketiga, atau mungkin kelima, atau entah-entah dah kesejuta. Been there, done that. Harap lepas nih saya (kita) makin hati-hati...

Kitchen and the Kitchen Goddess' Dreams

Kitchen has always been given the last thought by the developers, not only that it's super tiny in size, it has also had the worst layout/design/location/everything in a house layout.
- Cubic footage : super small
- Location: Very tricky to get to ur kitchen, u might get lost, normally it's on the north pole of the house.
- Utilities: Near to the toilet
- Extra space: Yea, maybe they have, but there are reserved for "washing machine" and the fridge.

Unless you have renovation as the option, reworking the small kitchen space can be very tricky and demanded tremendous energy and consistent effort. I mean, we cook everyday, or almost everyday, right? And we use a lot of spices and raw ingredients which can turn our kitchens into super messy and cluttered spaces in less than 5 minutes. Not to mention the mess on the near vicinity created by the oil splatter.

Gosh! to make things worse, this is an endless loop. For those housewives who are very rajin-rajin and dont complaint a lot, they may not even be bothered by my ungrateful statements, but heaven, i care! Im lazy, ok, i admit it.

I told my husband about my dream, of having a kitchen that could be my sanctuary. A super big and spacious kitchen neither necessarily nor sufficient to satisfy my need. It can be moderate in size, but it has to have a very good layout and some other criteria. A kitchen is where a SAHM would spend a lot of her time in her life. I do not really demanding something unrealistic or super expensive, just a few realistic and down to earth (yer la tu) requirements would do it.

1 - Nice storage
Restaurants always have this the food/rations kept in special rooms, the "walking wardrobe" style. Since they may be quite costly :P and not that necessary, i would need some cabinets that could accommodate all my spices, beans, flours, dried noodles, can foods, keropok, kerepek, junk foods etc in a very systematic way - that i could reach out for them anytime. I have this tendency to buy things in bulks. I think it's rather convenient for future use. I found the following idea to be very nice and inspiring, especially for a house with tiny space.

2. - A place where I can access internet and tv easily
I may spend a lot of time there thus i wanted to be able to access internet from my kitchen. Until i became a chef of my own :P i rely very much on the recipes from the net..

And mr Z has been very supportive with the idea of creating some entertainment space in the kitchen, he wanted to give me this (is it necessary? :P)-->

By the way, the following "cook book" is wayy~y cool *juling biji mata*.
This 'Kitchen Sync' might be convenient and perfectly designed to replace a laptop in a kitchen, purposely invented to help the housewives, but i hope the price could get a bit lower to 'help' the househusbands as well.

3. - A place where my kid(s) love to be
I can watch them play or at least do their homework here.

4. - A movable kitchen island
Well, only if we could afford it (money-wise and 'space-wise'), this could be a perfect place to have a simple breakfast or quick brunch. I could create some art stuffs or bake with my kids here :) Purr~fect.

5. - The kitchen cabinets/counters etc should be easy to clean
Easy to clean, this should have came into my number one priority. I hate oily and watery/damp kitchen counters. All the appliances should be kept awa~y from my eyes, hidden in the cabinets. I hate to see things hanging down my kitchen wall or scattered on the kitchen counters. While other housewives have no problem to make sure that all these items are nicely placed on the counters etc, it tend to be a bit messy in our kitchen, since i would move these items a lot.

Owh~kalau ada semua nih dalam dapur, tidur situ pun takper :P Selalunya yang belum ada rumah tend to be a bit ambitious in house hunting, especially bab nak itu ini dalam rumah mereka, before reality check - that is..

Just one teeny meeny problem! I prefer a traditional touch or at least a kitchen equipped with wooden cabinets/furnitures for some warm and cozy feeling

but he just so into the futuristic look and is fascinated with steel kitchen cabinets. As he put it, simple and contemporary..

Wahh~ me - a Kitchen Goddess kunun.

Cornstarch Clay Modelling

Ingredients:
1 cup Cornstarch
2 cups salt
water

Preparation:
1. Mix 1 cup cornstarch + 1/2 cup ice water in a bowl.
2. Mix 2 cups salt + 1 cup water in a pan.
3. Stir constantly salt + water mixture over low heat.
4. Remove or lower the heat. Quickly stir in cornstarch + water mixture.
5. Keep stirring until it became thick and reach the clay consistency.

6. I used play-dough cutter to cut the dough into star shape and button.
7. You can dye the dough or paint it once your craft has dried up. We can use either acrylics, watercolors or tempera paints.


Review:
1. This type of clay dries on air. Keep the dough in an air tight container
2. It has grainy texture compared to the previously made 'play-doh' 


The homemade play-doh -->


Homemade cornstarch Clay -->

3. Once it completely dried up, it would be very light and quite durable.

4. Some people simply replaced "salt" with "baking soda"

6. The mixture is quite grainy, you might consider to add some more water or at least, do make sure that the salt are completely dissolved in the water before u add in the "cornstarch + water" mixture

7. Small parts can be quite fragile, need to be handled with love :D

8. The models made from this clay can last for quite a long time :) So it was me whowere extra excited about this project :)

Other ideas (gambar-gambar diculik dari website mereka):

1. Faux Pearl Necklace


2. Tiny Creatures/ Miniatures


3. Cute Door Gifts/ Toys


4. Fridge Magnets

p/s: I know i owed an apology from misah n ayu, for the late update on the recipe.. Sowie :P Hope this will make up for it..

p/p/s: Despite its terrible taste, our one year old guest used the buttons i made as the teethers. Dah hilang sebiji setengah... Nasib baik non-toxic :D 

Baju Nursing Bunga-Bunga

MyMuslimart dah ada baju nursingnya sendiri :) Best, tak payah lerr nak drooling over baju-baju kat internet yang harga over $100 sehelai tuh ..Alhamdulillah, yang nih confirm modest..




Kalau nak tengok boleh add facebook mymuslimart atau masuk official websitenya.

Sangat sesuai untuk musim bunga yang bakal tiba. Cik Puan Yin, booking yer dua-dua tuh...saiz etc seperti yang dinyatakan di fesbuk..ehehe.

Tengah tengok-tengok baju lain jugak, especially baju bb :).. Apa lagi stok yg tinggal yer? Nak rebut saiz sebab selalu kelewatan :((

Nazar vs Evil Eye

Nazar dalam pemahaman kita ialah "niat untuk buat sesuatu bersungguh-sungguh, dan ada reward/ punishment yang disertakan dengan nazar tuh".. lebih kurangla :P

Tapi di kalangan kawan-kawan di sini, nazar bermaksud "Evil eye". Iaitu pandangan dari orang luar yang penuh dengan hasad dan niat tak baik terhadap kita, malahan "evil eye" ini dipercayai boleh mendatangkan serius "bad luck", dan boleh memberi kesan ke atas kehidupan kita.

Ia lebih kurang "pandangan hasad manusia yang dengki dan penuh niat tidak ikhlas/ jahat". Ia tidak semestinya berkaitan dengan amalan sihir, tapi lebih kepada 'doa-doa dari orang yang dengki'.. Cerita mereka, contohnya suami isteri yang asyik bergaduh~hh jer kerjanya, tapi bila mereka pindah dari tempat tersebut, elok pula hubungan mereka. Atau seseorang yang asyik tak tenteram kehidupannya, risau tak tentu pasal, cepat naik angin, but bila she moved out from that place/country, tiba-tiba jer hepi, tenang dan tak marah-marah.

Benda-benda macam nih boleh dibincangkan dari segi psikologi juga, tapi yang ingin dikongsi di sini ialah "budaya" dan "pemahaman" mereka tentang nazar. Saya agak, perkataan "nazar" atau "evil eye" nih agak taboo jugak di kalangan mereka, sebab bila mereka sebut jer perkataan tersebut, tone suara mereka merendah dan macam...err.. risau-risau. (Mereka = orang Timur Tengah dan Asia Barat dll)

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Semasa di UIA dulu, kawan saya (Arab raised) mengalami banyak sangat kesusahan dekat2 nak finalize thesis master beliau. Kejap-kejap kena tambah itu inila, external demamla, sv outstationla, macam-macamla. So dari final submission, viva tertangguh for 2 semesters! Dah ler dia foreign student, kos pengajian dan hostel lagi mahal dari local students. Until one day, she came to me,

Her: "Z, I want to tell you one thing, but please dont tell anybody else." cakap beliau perlahan.
Me: "O..ok. Is there anything wrong?" 
Her: "Actually, the date for my viva has been booked and confirmed"
Me: "Wow! Finally...after all these time. This is a great news, if I were u, i would have shouted it to the whole world! Im sure they (our friends) would be very happy to hear that. "
Her: "No, please dont tell anyone. Not everyone"

I was quite surprised. Berita sebaik itu kenapa nak disembunyikan, i mean, this is what we wanted, right? As a research student. Tapi kemudian dia bagitau sesuatu..

"I was indeed like that. I told everyone about my progress (with the thesis) but i always wonder why there've been so many problems, that the date was postponed or canceled without solid reasons etcetera etcetera, until one day, a friend told me that one of our best friends was indeed not very happy with the news. She said few bad things and she wished for things that were... 'not so good'..I was very shocked. That's when I realized the cause of all these problems."


"There might be another reasons, but I dont want to take any more risk"..

We've been living together for few years and were close enough that I could safely conclude that she's been a very honest girl and a devout muslimah, she never believe in nonsense, but honestly, saya juga kesian dan tak tau mengapa thesis beliau tertangguh-tangguh, other than the word "ujian".

Itulah sebabnya, bila sahabat-sahabat di sini bercerita tentang "nazar" atau "evil eye" nih, terus saya teringatkan kata-kata beliau, thus explained her (quite) strange behaviour waktu tuh..

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Kata sahabat-sahabat saya di sini lagi, hati-hati jika nak post video/ gambar ke internet, walaupun cuma gambar anak-anak. Sebab sentiasa akan ada orang yang cemburu dan iri hati dengan kita. Dengki melihat kebahagiaan yang dipaparkan..

Saya memang tidak akan poskan gambar kawan-kawan tersebut kat blog nih kerana selain menghormati pendapat mereka, kebanyakan parti/majlis makan-makan kami adalah "girls only party".. So faham-fahamla...:P Tapi satu benda yang saya terfikir bab dengki tuh, ada ker orang yang cemburu dengan saya? Atau kami sekeluarga?

Apa yang saya ada, yang orang lain tak ada?

Setiap orang ada kekurangan dan kelebihannya sendiri, kan? kan?