Challenging myself

I am challenging myself beyond my own capability, into doing something i had never thought i would be doing. I am dragging myself one inch at one time, one step at one second. The tide is killing me. It is strangely hard to breath. It is either i forgot how to, or ive been too conscious counting every breath that i take.

For the sake of being me again,
and for the confidence i wanted to regain,
im praying hard for His mercy and His love,
to give me strength and guidance when i need all those,

to choose the best and the right path. O' Allah, have mercy on me!