Educator? Researcher? Lecturer?

For being outside the academic world (at least at the very moment), i would say that im no longer qualified to criticize anything abot how the government or the certain universities have been treating their loyal public servants who serve in the academic areas, namely teachers and lecturers.

Apart from being burdened with unnecesary report writings, time table planning and other ridiculuos, miscellaneous stuffs, there were also management works to be carried out. All and all. By the time they finally can stop to catch a breath, it's already final project presentation, where their respective supervisees would present what is supposedly to be the final year projects. But where are their own, their very own masterpieces?

Semua kerja sibuk, and sibuk is a very noble word. Tapi kerja biarlah diserahkan pada ahlinya. And a fashion designer can rarely fix a pipeline(hehe), unless he himself volunteered for the job, and is as skillful as he claimed to be :P

While that someone(lets call this person G) could have easily made $*k per month as the starting salary by working in dotdot, G chose to come back and serve the country, thinking that the government has did so much for him and that it was time for him to serve the nation. And G's genuine love for knowledge has made him to think that it was the right decision to opt for. In my humble opinion, there were quite some people whose learning ability were quite high, but was extremenly rare to find among these gifted people, those who harvest genuine love in knowledge without any hidden interest. It is sad. Worsen by the fact that these rare breed were somehow restricted from doing what they can do the best. Edison needed 99 failed experiments before his first light of hope appeared, right? (was it really 99? Wow..)

These people themselves, dont really whine about how the bureauacracy have been treating them. Few times, they might have said something and then fullstop. But then it was those people surrounding them whom were affected very much by this birokarapsi.

Aggh~
Three of the beloved juniors (of him) while he was studying in Germany asked if there were any vacancies in this precious uni. It would be fun to have them around here in this super boring PR. Since I have known them quite well, I can positively say that they could carry out any tasks given very well, since they are really very bright, extremenly industrious, genuinely hardworking and highly motivated persons.
(eh, cam testimony lak)

The only problem was that,can we rest assured that such talents and valuable resources would not go wasted?
Hmm...
Hmmm...

Challenging myself

I am challenging myself beyond my own capability, into doing something i had never thought i would be doing. I am dragging myself one inch at one time, one step at one second. The tide is killing me. It is strangely hard to breath. It is either i forgot how to, or ive been too conscious counting every breath that i take.

For the sake of being me again,
and for the confidence i wanted to regain,
im praying hard for His mercy and His love,
to give me strength and guidance when i need all those,

to choose the best and the right path. O' Allah, have mercy on me!

Di tangan lelaki..

Di tangan lelaki, ada banyak kuasa yang boleh digunakannya, atau disalahgunakannya... Kuat sekalipun saya cuba menolak hakikat ini, tetapi tiada dapat disangkal bahawa sesungguhnya zahir lelaki itu jauh berbeza berbanding wanita, amalnya memang berganda, mindanya lebih berkuasa, hatinya lebih keras, akalnya lebih bernas. Seharusnya itulah ciri lelaki Islam sejati. Malangnya, yang menjatuhkan taraf lelaki itu atau menjadikan mereka kurang di mata wanita, adalah mereka sendiri.

Saya percaya, pada setiap seratus perceraian yang terjadi di antara suami isteri yang Islam, hanya tak sampai dua belah tangan pun puncanya dari wanita. Kerana...talak di tangan mereka. Dan kerana, tulang rusuk yang bengkok selamanya akan bengkok,. Tetapi seandainya si isteri diletakkan tetap di tempat yang betul (rusuk), dekat di hati dan dilindungi kerana melindungi, Insya-Allah...

Isteri jika membentak itu adalah kerana dia ingin didengari,
Walaupun tidak disukai, cubalah wahai suami menghayati,
Perhatikan di penghujung itu pasti si isteri menangis tersedu sendiri,
Hilangkan amarah tangisnya dengan pelukan erat dan ciuman di dahi.

Isteri jika membebel itu tanda bosan hadir di dalam hati,
Perkara remeh pasti semua diungkit kembali,
Berikan sejambak bunga pasti dia tersenyum sendiri,
Pegang tangannya dan bawalah dia bersiar-siar berdua sesekali.

Jemukah sudah pada sang isteri?
Yang dulu indah bak bidadari..
Jangan dikejar yang tidak pasti,
Yang belum ditanam belum pasti menjadi...

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Jangan kaitkan hal ini dengan sesiapa mahupun penulis sendiri. Sebenarnya sesekali tergigit lidah itu biasa dalam berumah tangga. Yang tidak biasanya ialah lelaki yang putus asa dan enggan berusaha. Sesungguhnya calon isteri dipilih atas empat perkara,kerana lelakilah yang sepatutnya membetulkan/mencukupi mana-mana perkara yang tidak dicukupi isteri. Jika inginkan isteri yang sempurna empat perkara itu mudah sahaja, pastikan diri-sendiri berada di tempat yang sebetulnya.

Actually i was shocked by this certain blogger who openly cerita about her failed marriage and kept on cursing his ex in her blog, and told the the things you wouldnt imagine a lady would tell, n more than what anyone would want to know. If you know what i mean.

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Sahabat saya ke kursus perkahwinan lama dahulu, dan seorang ustaz menceritakan tugas2 sang isteri dengan semangatnya. Dan menceritakan bahawa memasak itu tanggungjawab isteri. Isteri perlu belajar masak sehingga pandai, supaya suami tak 'cari' lagi. Begitulah katanya lebih kurang.

Kemudian ustaz itu menyambung tentang cerita sahabatnya, yang telah menceraikan isterinya setelah bertahun berkongsi bahagia. Kata ustaz itu,

"Memang patutlah sang isteri diceraikan. Bila masak sahaja kurang masin, kurang sedap. Si isteri memang tak layak menjadi isteri. Suami mana yang tahan. Dia tak menjalankan tanggungjawabnya sebagai isteri dengan baik."

Lalu ketawalah sang ustaz dan anak-anak muda lelaki dalam kursus perkahwinan itu. Berdekah-dekah dah macam bukan ceramah agama.

Kemudian sahabat saya bingkas bangun mengangkat tangan,

"Ustaz. Kalau situasinya macam ni pulak bagaimana? Lampu di rumah saya terbakar, lepas tu saya minta suami saya betulkan tapi dia sendiri tak dapat betulkannya, maksudnya saya bolehlah minta cerai, kan? Taklik. Sebagai suami, dia gagal melindungi dan menyediakan keperluan isteri dan tak menjalankan tanggungjawab sebagai suami yang baik."

Ustaz tadi terdiam. Dan menyambung kuliahnya dengan nada tersekat-sekat.

Pesanan (ringkas) papa Aisyah

Bayangkan seorang bapa yang sanggup meriba anaknya yang berusia beberapa hari, dalam keadaan bersila, dari pukul 11malam, hingga pukul 3.30pagi...tanpa sesaatpun meletakkan anaknya ke bawah...


gambar hiasan: aisyah berusia 27 jam

Ada sebabnya mr Z buat begitu. Si kecil Aisyah memang automatically akan start menangis daripada pukul 11malam hingga pukul 3++pagi, setiap malam, sehingga umurnya 3bulan.

Jadi sebelum mr Z nak pegi kursus 5hari ni, sewaktu mr z sedang bermain-main dengan little A (di dalam bilik), saya dengar beliau berpesan kepada Aisyah...

"Nanti tinggal dengan mama baik2, jangan nakal2. Mama tu bukan boleh, gaghangggggg"

heh..i heard you :P

The next day, to me, dia pesan agar...

"Jaga Aisyah baik-baik."
"Petang bawak dia jalan-jalan."
"Nanti bagi kasih sayang secukupnya tau."


Ehehe...baiklah.
5 hari kursus, handphone akan 'dirampas'...:P

Manitoba: Collecting Infos

I didnt update this blog on regular basis (did i?) anymore. I wanted to excuse myself by saying that i was have been very busy lately. But then lazy is another word that i should not forget to mention. bizi lezi bizi lezi.................**ok enough!

Ive never been able to picture myself living abroad as a housewife, with a toddler to look after. Although part of me is looking forward to experience such pleasure for having to stay at home; struggle-hassle-exam-cplus2-research-conference-viva free, the other part of me is suffering and a little bit hesitate to the idea of leaving this motherland for at least another 2,3 years... Uish..karang masin mulutku, kesian mr z..

I dont know, I guess ive found my comfortable zone here. And Im reluctant to leave my old parents behind. Im a mom now, and it was the birth of little aisyah that had rebonded me to my mother, for my father was whom id been very much comfortable to talk and share everything with ..And the rebond had just started two years ago! They're getting older, I have a very bad feeling of leaving them now...

Sad, im not ready.

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Ok. enough whining over something that didnt take place yet. Nanti jadi tak bersyukur dan kufur...

So, here's the info (living costs/ expenses etc), in canada (southern part). thanx kak zie and ummihassan etc. (Currency is CAD-Canadian Dollar)

electricity: 200 per month maximum (winter). otherwise, <100
hydro bil: 300 per year
school: <30 per year, and no uniform, no need to buy stationery
renting: 800 - 1000 per month (unfurnished)
monthly bus ticket (student): around 80

Foods
Rice: 8kg around $8, fresh milk $2

Formula milk: Info n/a yet (found enfamil...)


ok..nnti update lg.info chatz hilang ditelan meebo. Tensi.kok gitu sekali ya.
Kesimpulannya..walaupun food prices agak rendah, overall kenala jimat cermat kali nih... house rental+letrik dah CAD1100..ughh~ agak menakutkan

and i found few informative websites..
http://www.livingin-canada.com/food-prices-canada.html
http://www.livingin-canada.com/house-affordability-canada.html
http://relocatecanada.com/foodprice.html

Campak ke hutan, Humban ke laut

Bersungguh-sungguh mr z dengar ucapan Datuk Seri saya-akan-menjadi-pm-soon.

Saya juga dengar, sebab tv ada satu, tentulah kena tengok rancangan yang sama. Walaupun lady z dengan politik ibarat arang dengan whipping cream, takder kaitan langsung, tetapi sejak jadi ibu dan terhutang beratus-ratus ribu budi terhadap kerajaan Malaysia, maka dengan relanya saya cuba2 mengambil tahu hal politik yang memeningkan itu...untuk masa depan anakku, at least.

Menariknya pasal bahasa (lagi?)..Kata DSN, kita perlu menguasai sekurang-kurangnya 3bahasa untuk menguasai dunia.

Yang tu saya setuju, 3 bahasa kalau kita betul serius. bukan bahasa inggeris sahaja. bukan bahasa melayu sahaja. Tapi yang takjubnya, sangka saya, kita (Malaysian) sedang cuba membentuk negara maju, rupa-rupanya kita sedang cuba menguasai dunia...fuh~ serious misi ni. Datuk Seri, count me in! :D Errr... Tapi klu nk menguasai dunia, perlu ker tahu bahasa orang? Ingatkan redah jer cam Genghiz Khan... owh, saya salah lagi...

Kata DSN lagi, perlu adakan kursus 2hari 3malam, atau 3hari 4malam, dan bukan di hotel..tapi di hutan. Kalau perlu, kita campak ke laut...
ehehe... (lebih kurangla ayatnya cam tu, kan?)

Ni, lusa nanti seseorang akan dicampak ke hutan dan dihumban ke laut!

Selamat berenang mr z :P